Yes, you read that right! I know! 10 pounds I've gained in about a month. I am just shocked. Blown away...this happens to me every vacation (except summer). I eat when I'm stressed and/or depressed. And, boy, howdy, was I going nuts this last month. Things have gotten dramatically better for me in my personal life, but now I've got these food/eating habits again that I need to pound back into the ground. I just eat and eat without tasting the food, eating like a shark...a lot of food. Not a freakishly large amount of food, but...well, I guess it has been in order to GAIN 10 pounds (now, I am on my period, so, I'm hoping that has several pounds to do with it...). I also didn't exercise for a month. Bingo...what a freaking dork I am. I am just about the dumbest person around.
But here's the totally weird thing: I'm not actually berating myself senseless about it. I'm not happy with myself, but...I'm not loathing myself, because that's what would KEEP me in this place, and I don't want to stay here. I do, however, need to figure out a way to keep this pattern from returning again and again. SOOOOOO easy for me to gain 10 pounds, and SOOOOO hard for me to lose 10 pounds. Not easy come, easy go...
Take care,
FatMom
4 comments:
vacations are so hard. you're out of your routine, the exercise goes down, the food goes up and before you know it....you know it is likely the combination of all three (TOM, exercise & food) that got you in the pickle. What an awesome victory though, that you've been able to process it without the self hate. The self hate is what gets us into that cycle. At least it is for me. Maybe letting that go is the key to breaking your cycle....
I hate that. I'm afraid to get on the scale after the week that I've had. Good to hear that you're thinking more positively about it, though!
I'm the same way - I swear I can gain 10 pounds in a weekend if I'm not on top of what I'm eating. And it takes FOR-FREAKIN-EVA to peel that same weight back off. RUDE.
I know that you can get back into your groove though. You have made too much progress to go back to where you came from. :)
Yikes!! I hate it when I do that!! Your right not to beat yourself over it.. I've learned to give myself a ((hug)) and forgive myself... right before I torture myself with a grueling workout! LOL
You'll do fine.. just try and focus in again!
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