Monday, August 18, 2008

Day 235...Phew...187...

What is going ON with me?! I've gained 10 pounds in a month. How do I DO that? I mean, seriously? HOW can that happen? I've been super active, eating more than usual, but not totally out of control...HOW can I gain 10 pounds? If you've been reading this blog for more than a month or so, you'll realize that I CAN gain 10 pounds in a month, and I do...too often. And yet I am still completely taken by surprise when it happens. Sometimes I wonder if I will EVER get below the high 170's.

But you know what? I feel good. Not as good as I feel 10 pounds lighter, but I feel good. I think it's because I've kept my exercise up.

Still, little things happen when I get this heavy. My feet start to hurt a bit. My feet and hands stay perpetually swollen just a bit. There's a fullness to my face that's not completely pleasant. I find it harder to get up off the floor after working with a student. My thighs rub together. Oh, wait! They rub together no matter what...

Back to planning my meals and snacks again. That's the only thing that works, and yet I rebel against it with all my heart. I HATE writing down everything. I hate planning like that. I feel so stifled. So dominated. So completely without any spontaneity. Blech. But, do it I least for a little while. Then I'll stop. And gain back the 10 pounds I lost. Jeez, do I need therapy? Seriously...Has anyone else gotten over this psychological hump? Do tell...

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO glad FATINAH is back! I missed her so much...where did she go? I'll have to read all about it...didn't know she left...did I miss something in her blog?




Chellie has Issues said...

Hey mama I'm in the same boat. Since it's been summer (historically I gain a bit since I'm not busy teaching) and not being as active after surgery AND I have not been writing down my food I too am up 10 pounds since June. My plan, keep being actice and actually write down my food instead of trying to keep it straight in my head. Just having a plan is half the battle.

Fatinah said...

I love writting food down - but I sure do find it a lot harder in the summer. I like being able to look back through my book and see the full pages. Plus, for me, if it isn't written down, it doesn't exist and I don't have a stop point!!

carla said...

it is about the planning AND about the STOPPING and not beating yourself up.

today is a new day.
a clean slate.

you can do this.